When you learn to hear your intuition, nothing bad can come from that. A lot of the times, when our intuition speaks to us, it doesn’t make sense immediately. It’s not this glaringly obvious thing that happens, and it especially doesn’t make sense to those around you.
That can lead to some uncomfortable conversations, right?
I want to share a story with you:
I started out my entrepreneurial journey as a virtual assistant; I grew it up to be a virtual assistance and web development agency. I booked that out, then added business coaching onto that, and I booked that out too. All of those things were great and I was running a six-figure business, but a part of me was still a bit like, “I don’t feel like I’m quite in the flow. There’s something else out here for me, right?”
The opportunity to start my own publishing company with a mentor came along and it made no sense. It was a huge investment for me at the time. I was really hitting my upper limit on my money beliefs and time investment. I had a young child at the time, and still do, Autumn is five at the time of writing this.
This opportunity would require me restructuring that six-figure business that I had just spent the past four years building, so my logical, masculine A personality type brain said, “This makes no sense; you can’t do this.”
My intuition speaks to me through my gut and also through signs. And I said to the universe, “Okay, I will leap, but I need you to show me an eagle.”
The Eagle is my spirit animal and they are not common around where I live.
So I chatted with the universe, saying “I need you to show me an eagle if this is the right path.”
I asked for something very specific within a specific timeframe of 24 hours. When you make requests like this you need to be really specific otherwise these things can just drag on for ages and you can make up all of these stories about things that are, and aren’t there, etc.
Half an hour after placing my order with the universe, I’m driving down the road to go and pick up some food for my chickens, and a huge eagle flys across the road in front of me.
The sign I had asked for. But being human my head was like, “Oh no, no, no, no, no, no. That’s just a coincidence.”
My fear was now truly overriding my intuition.
“I’m just going to think about this a bit more,” I reason with myself.
I go and I pick up the chicken food and I’m driving back home and I see two different eagles flying together across the road in front of me. I was like, “Come on. Really? No, nopedy, nope. I need more time!”
My head began to spin with catastrophic stories – “What if I go broke? What if everyone laughs at me? What if I lose all my clientele? What if I fail and I must go back to corporate? What if I’m not a good role model for my daughter?”
“I just need some more time to think about this,” I tell myself.
By this stage, I swear my spirit guides are sitting there rolling their eyes and going, “Are you for real? What do we have to do to get this woman to listen?”
I stopped at my mum’s on the way home. I had to drop something off and I opened the front door which opens straight into the living room. She had the TV on National Geographic.
And wouldn’t you guess there’s a huge eagle on the screen.
At that stage I had nothing left to argue with and just went, “Okay, that’s it.” I picked up my courage and I just thought, “I know this doesn’t make sense. Not right now. But I have to find my courage, and I have to leap all in with both feet because there is no halfway.”
You can’t ask for something and then just dip your toe in and just feel around because that’s never going to fully come into being. It’s like folding a hose, and the water is trying to come out and now it’s just a dribble; whereas, if you just let it be, it comes out in its full flow. There is no halfway.
So I jumped in with both feet and that’s why my publishing company is called Four Eagles Publishing. The name is a little nod to the courage it takes in business and in life to trust your intuition, and to surrender to the messages that come from your higher knowing, even if it doesn’t make sense yet.
And it has been one of the best things that I have ever done.
This is what I’m on this earth to do. This is what the universe was trying to reorder for me.
Now that is not to say that things don’t still get hard. I think as we step more and more into our leadership, we can have this false sense that it’s going to get easier.
“Once I hit six figures I’m not going to have these problems. Everything’s going to be gold. I’m going to be so happy. Once I do this, once I have this, once I say this, once I get in a relationship with that person, this is going to happen for me.”
That is just not true. There are always going to be challenges. The grass is not always greener. The grass is greener when you nurture it, where you water it, where you are right now, because there’s no guarantee of tomorrow.
So instead of looking outside of ourselves all the time and looking forward all the time, ask yourself, “What can I do right now that makes me feel abundant?”
To be in partnership with your intuition takes practice. Because as we grow up, in my experience, I have found that it gets harder and harder to hear your intuition if you’re not in continuous connection with it. We have to relearn it. We must remember who we are and how we operate and what we came here to do.
You’ll need to let your inner lioness out, but not all the time, which is something that I had to learn to do. I was very much like a warrior/fighter kind of person, but it also takes courage to be gentle, to keep showing up, to keep in alignment, and to keep true to you.
To get to know your intuition and how it speaks to you try journaling, meditation, yoga grounding in nature, gardening, reading, bubble baths, essential oils, music, dance, art, running, – whatever it is for you.
You need to be doing the things that light you up and allow your creativity to flow and space to be.
I want to share with you an exercise that has been invaluable to me.
Instead of keeping it all locked up inside and running around and around like a hamster on a wheel when your fear shows up, do the “What’s the worst that can happen?” exercise.
Get a piece of paper and write down the worst that could happen.
I’ll give you an example: I did this practice when I was trying to make the decision to start my publishing company. I asked myself, “What’s the worst that could happen?” My response flowed from my fear, into my fingers and out through the pen – “My family won’t talk to me. I’ll lose money. People will laugh at me. People will say mean things to me on the internet. I’ll feel like a failure. I won’t be able to rebuild what I’ve created. We’ll go bankrupt and lose the house. Then I’ll have to live in a box. Then my daughter will get a cold and die.”
All of these fears were trapped inside me and needed to be brought to light. To give them space to be seen, heard, loved and released.
Then I left these fears sitting on the page and I ‘opened my toolbox’ and picked something that felt good for me in the moment. I took my shoes off and went to sit on the grass for a while.
I came back and got a fresh piece of paper.
“What’s the best thing that can happen?”
“My business could explode in a good way! I could impact more people. I can change lives. My business can grow. I can finally start that not-for-profit charity that I want to start. I will be more in alignment with my purpose and who I am and what I came here to do. I will wake up every morning happy, and I will lead from a place of heart and connected-ness”
Now that we’ve got your two extreme contrasts here, we can go through the worst case scenario with a fresh perspective and ask, “If this was to happen, is it really going to get this bad?”
For example, we’ve got down to the bankruptcy line. We’ve gone bankrupt and I won’t be able to put food on the table. Do I have friends who would come in and give us food? Do I have family who would come and give us food? Could I go to a local shelter, a food bank? Could I rebuild whatever it is that I broke? Because quite often these stories, the worst-case scenario ones, are just that, stories.
Your reality is a story you are telling yourself based on your past experiences, your current position and your future expectations. Only you have the ability to pick up that pen, cross out that line, and rewrite another one and to continue writing it.
And when you don’t like what you’re writing, start again.
It’s not like you’ve got this limit on things that you can and can’t do; cross it out.
What a gift to be able to choose again! Unlimited choices! “Do you know what? I actually don’t like the story that I find myself in, how can I rewrite it?” is always available to you.
Living this way takes tremendous courage, but each and every one of us has it within us to do it again and again, and again. And just like exercising, it becomes easier each and every time you do it. Then all of a sudden you look up and you are living an amazingly courageous life; the life you’ve dreamed, the life that you have created in co-creation with the universe.
You have the power within you to do that. And if you break it, you can fix it. Why? Because you built it in the first place. You created your situation in the first place. You can rebuild it.
So go forth and create.